Where the heck do my days off go??

Seriously, I only work 2 twelve hour shifts a week (Saturdays and Sundays) but I swear the Monday through Friday days off I Have are gone in the blink of an eye! Maybe it's because we have been busy with appointments and running around alot the last couple of weeks, but still!! I only have one more week off before my classes start back up and then it's going to be busy, busy, busy until the end of June. I can't say that I'm looking forward to it.
I have really struggled the last two days on the treadmill, maybe it will be better when I get on again Sunday and if not Sunday maybe Tuesday, I did have a good Tuesday this last week. My legs just felt like lead the last two days and it was honestly a struggle to get the workout done. I did 3.5 miles today, it took a little longer, and I wanted to quit, but I did it. I didn't do any kind of a longish run, at most maybe a half mile jog solid and then intervals, but it's done and over with and next time will be a new workout with hopefully better mental focus.

Treadmill Stats:

Warm up:
0.5 miles at 4.1 to 4.2 mph with .5 to 1.0 incline
7.16 minutes
87.4 calories burned

Walk/Jog/Inclines
3.0 miles (variable speeds and inclines)
42.19 minutes
526.0 calories burned

Totals:
3.5 miles
49.35 minutes
613.4 calories burned

I didn't count calories today, and that's probably a good thing, it wasn't such a good eating day!!!
I'll post my Saturday food log tomorrow night. I'm going to try those full bars at work tomorrow, because for some stupid reason I am starving when I'm at work and when I get home, so maybe that will help me feel full before lunch at work and full once I get home if I eat one on the trip home. We'll see...
No exercise tomorrow.

My BMR

The easiest way to figure out your daily caloric needs is using something like the Harris-Benedict formula. Calculate your Basal Metabolic Rate (BMR) first - this is the number of calories your body uses just to get through the day, without physical activity thrown in.
BMR = 655 + (9.6 x weight in kilos) + (1.8 x height in centimetres) - (4.7 x age in yrs)

655 + (9.6 x 90.9)+ (1.8 x 162.56) - (4.7 x 41)

655 + 872.64 + 292.6 - 192.7 = 1627.54

x 1.55 = 2522.6

- 500 = 2022.6

** So technically if I eat 1000 less than that I should lose 2 pounds per week, right??
Did I do this right?

Not as good at focusing as I thought

I hopped on the treadmill this afternoon and it was a fight to the finish, not me fighting the treadmill, but me fighting my stupid brain, the one organ of my body that I can't seem to get a handle on, and dammit it would make life so much easier if I could!! GAHHHH!!! I know I can do better I just felt really distracted today. Maybe it was because two of the kids were home "sick" from school and disrupted my daily routine, or maybe it was just me, and my inability to stop the noise, noise, noise, noise (feeling Seuss-like tonight, we just read Green Eggs and Ham), or maybe it was just not a great exercise day and I just need to get over it and move on. It's not even so much the quantity of my treadmill workout, it's that I am so focused on running that whole 5K in July that I really want to get my jogging stretch up to par. I did 1.2 miles the other day and today I only did 1, it feels like a failure, even though I know it's not. Not to make excuses (yeah, I NEVER do that!) but I am super sore from yoga on Wednesday, it's crazy what a great workout that is and I know I pushed myself in class, and today I'm paying for it. I have decided Fridays are going to be treadmill days, too, I'll just have to see how it plays out, I know the original plan I came up with was to do and exercise dvd on Fridays, but honestly, I hate exercise dvd's, not that I will stop buying them, mind you, I have a pretty extensive collection of once and twice used dvd's, I always think they look good and then I'm disappointed, or just lack the motivation to do them. Just another of the great flaws I get to call my own!!!! I love going out to do an exercise class or yoga class, and I have no problem using my treadmill, I just hate the workout dvd's.
So the new schedule for the week will be Sundays-treadmill, Mondays-yoga, Tuesdays-treadmill, Wednesdays-yoga, Thursdays and Friday-treadmill, Saturdays-off, and let me tell you Sundays are hard after working 12 hours shifts on Saturday and Sunday, but I'll just have to push through it.
I actually did some sprints (well, sprint speed for me right now) at 6 mph today and my hip didn't even bother me in the slightest, I couldn't be happier about that!!

Treadmill stats:

Warm up
7.23 minutes
.5 miles at 4.0 to 4.1 mph (mostly 4.1 with a .5 incline)
85.9 calories

Jog/walk
34.32 minutes
2.7 miles
456.8 calories
5 mph for 1 mile straight then alternated 4.0 to 4.1 walks with 5.0 to 6.0 runs for the remaining 1.7 miles.

Totals
41.55 minutes ( not too shabby, I thought my time would be a little longer but I think it compares to Tuesday's workout)
3.2 miles
542.7 calories burned

I took the little girls for a walk after supper, it was windy as all get out, but pretty nice. It feels good to walk and get fresh air. The nicest cat came right up to us out of someone's yard and it was so friendly. Mallory just loved it.

Food log

Breakfast: Nutri grain bar 130 (damn these are coming in handy this week, too much running around the last couple of weeks!)!

Lunch:
Lean Cuisine 250
Broccoli 45

Supper:
Domino's thin crust cheese pizza 600

Snack:
Ritz crackers 80 (stopped munching on these real quick when I saw they were 80 calories for 5 stinkin' crackers...wow!)!!!

Calories for the day 1105 (and that greasy pizza actually made me feel sick)
minus treadmill workout 542.7
=562.3

Am I eating enough calories?? I want to try to hit around 1400 but is my body going to go into starvation mode with the calorie deficit from exercising. You'd think after a lifetime of dieting off and on I'd know this.
Tomorrow is a no calorie counting day. I had a loss this week and if it keeps working I'll keep doing the cheat day on Fridays, within reason of course!!

Gotta go finish the grocery list for shopping tomorrow...boooooo!!!

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Daily dose of mini m&ms

I think a daily dose of mini m&ms might just be a good thing for me. I get my chocolate fix and I get to eat a ton of mini's for 150 calories, not the healthiest thing in the world, but I'm looking for adaptations to make this a lifestyle I can live with forever. I'm sure I won't eat them every day but it's good to know those little chocolaty goodies are available if I need them. At least until I overcome this compulsion to eat, eat, eat, that I seem to live with, and plan to get a handle on someday! Hey a girl can dream, right?
I went to yoga this morning and I really, really like it. I definitely think this is something I will keep doing for a long time to come. As cliche as it sounds, I really feel more centered and at peace when I come out of the yoga studio and what I take away helps me outside of there, as well. I just love it. I can only hope to someday be as flexible as my yoga instructor who is all of about 125# and pregnant with twins!! I am in awe watching her go through the poses and demonstrating them, she is incredible!!
Tomorrow is another treadmill day. I have a stupid dentist appointment at 8 am, what the hell was I thinking setting that up so early...bleh! I plan to get on the treadmill after lunch as usual, and we'll see what the day brings.

Food log:

Breakfast:
Cereal bar 130

Lunch:
Half subway oven roasted chicken breast on wheat loaded with veggies 320
Lite mayo 50
Sun chips 220

Supper:
Pork chop 200
Baked Potato 135
Margarine 60
Green beans 15
Sauerkraut 25

Snacks:
M&M minis 280
Starburst gummies 140

1575 calories total (damn sweet tooth anyway) Tomorrow will be a better day!

Treadmill workout 1

This is the playlist I am going to use for my run tomorrow...

Treadmill workout 1: "1. We Are Pilots - Shiny Toy Guns
2. Music Is My Hot, Hot Sex - CSS
3. Devoted - Lacuna Coil
4. Let's Get It Started - Black Eyed Peas
5. Paper Planes - M.I.A.
6. Bad Romance - Lady Gaga
7. Womanizer (Main Version) - Britney Spears
8. When You Were Young - The Killers
9. Poker Face - Lady Gaga
10. Jai Ho! (You Are My Destiny) featuring Nicole Scherzinger - Pussycat Dolls
11. Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It) - Beyonce
12. Keeps Gettin' Better - The CDM Chartbreakers
13. Heads Will Roll - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
14. Congratulations featuring Imogen Heap - Blue October
15. Halo - Beyonce"

Pain is only temporary

Exercise means being uncomfortable, it's about pushing yourself just a little farther than you think you can go, the uncomfortable feeling, the PAIN is only temporary. My mind screams at me to stop and I push on anyway because my body is getting stronger and pulling me past the limits of my mind. Think about how fast the pain goes away once you stop exercising, it's kind of like childbirth in that respect, intense pain that you don't think you will make it through but it all but disappears in the blink of an eye and is quickly forgotten, though the sense of accomplishment lingers. The question then becomes how to push past the pain or center yourself and just be in the moment, knowing it will all be done soon and that you are powerful and strong, I AM POWERFUL AND STRONG!!! I do this goofy thing when I'm running I try to visualize in my mind what my breath would look like going in and out of my body and in concentrating on just the breath I can block out everything else, just putting one foot in front of the other and breathing in and breathing out and just BEING! It's amazing to finally get it, to understand that I am capable of far more than I ever dared to think that I am. I am finally liking me and that is huge for someone who is a pro at picking apart all of her own flaws.

I lost 2.4 pounds this week, at first I wasn't thrilled because I was thinking that I didn't lose very much, turns out I had done the math wrong in my head and when I finally sat down to do my blog tonight it dawned on me that I LOST 2.4 POUNDS!!! WOOT WOOT!!!! Still not in "onederland" hopefully next week I will be under 200#, right now I'm sitting at 200.4. Disgusting still, but moving in the right direction anyway!

I ran 1.2 miles of my 3.2 mile treadmill workout today and not only did I run 1.2 miles I jumped my speed up to 5.0 mph, almost back to the speed I was at when I hurt the old lady hip. I am so happy to have been able to do 1.2 miles at that speed. I only warmed up for a half mile before jogging instead of my usual 1 mile and my hip did fine!! yippee!
Treadmill stats:

7.27 minutes
.5 mile
86.0 calories
4.0 to 4.1 mph .5 incline for a small part of it

14.29 minutes
1.2 miles
200.9 calories
5 mph!!!

20.05 minutes
1.5 miles
254.1 calories
Alternated 4.0 walk and 5.0 jog (attempted 6.0mph didn't last very long!)

Totals:
41.61 minutes (think I trimmed some time off...yayyyyyy!)
3.2 miles
541 calories burned

I feel good about today!!!

Food Log:

Breakfast:
Cereal bar 130

Lunch: (Panera my new favorite lunching spot!)
Cup of LF chicken noodle 80
1/2 Asian chicken salad 200
Dressing 45
Baguette 150

Supper:
Crescent roll 100
Low fat hot dog 90
Half slice of cheese 30

Snacks:
Fruit cup from Panera 60
Mini m&m's (my latest addiction because it feels like you get ALOT of those little suckers!!) 150
Starburst gummies 140
(Too much sugar today, I know!)

Total calories 1175
Burned on treadmill 541
=634

Interesting...

My family

Ass in the air, ass in the air, lookin' like a fool with my ass in the air (not really)

I went to yoga tonight and she worked with us on more poses, we did one where our butt was up against the wall, feet on the wall, and then we rocked away from the wall and my ass was in the air and my feet were over my head. I didn't think I could do it, but I did!! My feet are no where near touching the floor behind my head but maybe I'll get there someday!!! It's amazing what the body can accomplish once you learn to tune out the mind and just BE!!! I get great encouragement from the fact that I know my body can do much more than I have ever given it credit for, or ever in my wildest dreams thought I could do, especially once I stop listening to the "negative chatter" and just do it (yeah, I sound like Nike commercial!) Me, the former fat asthmatic kid, turned into fat asthmatic adult (most of the time anyway) who was never able to run a mile, not even in gym class as a kid, now can run a mile straight and then some. I registered for my first ever 5K for July. Scary!!! I may not be able to run 3.2 miles straight but I will definitely give it a go!!

Food log for today:
Didn't do so great, not that I ate too much, more like I didn't eat enough! Just wasn't all that hungry today for some reason. I will probably be ravenous tomorrow!

Breakfast:
Skipped!! I know I need to get better about this, breakfast is my downfall most days, I'm just not a breakfasty kind of person!

Lunch:
Tuna casserole 334 (New recipe from my taste of home cookbook)
Roasted Cauliflower 75 (I liked it, Danny, not so much)

Supper:
Salad mix 20
Lite Raspberry walnut dressing 70
Salad toppins 35

Snacks:
Protein bar 290

Yikes 824 calories (not so hot) I know eating too few calories can make me not lose weight, not what I need right now!! Tomorrow is weigh in day! Fingers and toes crossed that I lost at least something. I'm such an instant gratification person, if I don't see the scale budge I get frustrated and want to quit, but I can't think that way! I'm in this for the long haul!!

What kind of idiot gets on the treadmill for 3.2 miles after working a 12 hour shift?!?!?!

Why ME, of course!! I really didn't feel like it and my legs ached a good part of it, but it's done and I feel good, even though I'm dog tired. All I can say is Lady Gaga ROCKS, I crank her up on my MP3 player and away I go! I ran for the full mile again, I really had to dig deep to pull that one off because I was ready to walk it before I hit a half mile, I just kept telling myself one more tenth of a mile and I'll stop and finally I hit a mile. I did crank up the speed just a little, so that made it a little harder, if I'd have any sense I'd have waited to turn the speed up until Tuesday, but who ever said I had any sense?!?! The thing that irritated me the most is that all the while I was on the treadmill, my husband sat on his butt, under the fan, eating chips and dip and watching a movie, when I was stretching out I made a comment to him about whether he even felt a little twinge of guilt watching me doing the exercise when he is way more unhealthy than me, probably pissed him off a little, but it pisses me off alot. How the hell do you get someone to want to get healthy with you??? That is the big question... I have some ideas ;)

Treadmill:
14:52 time
1 mile
173.9 calories
4.0 to 4.1 mph

13:00 time
1.024 miles
170.6 calories
4.8 mph JOGGED the whole mile!!

17:16 time
1.201 miles
4.0 walk alternate with 5.0 jog
211.9 calories

Totals:
44.68 minutes
3.2 miles
556.4 calories burned

Food log:
Breakfast:
Coffee and creamer 60
Breakfast sandwich 260

Lunch
Smart ones baked ziti 320
Greek yogurt 110
Mandarin oranges 60
Vegs for one 40
Baby Carrots 35

Supper:
Rice chex cereal with skim and some sugar 225

Snacks:
Nuts 260
Fish crackers 140

Total calories 1510
Burned on treadmill 556.4
+953.6 (is this relevant, I don't know???)


So tired, I can't see straight...nite!!

Evil chocolate cake!!

Someone brought a chocolate birthday cake to work today and there was a big sheet cake left over from the march of dimes walk, too...evil, evil cake!!! HOWEVER, I didn't eat any, not even a bite; don't get me wrong, I wanted to, in the worst sort of way, but I didn't do it. I'm obviously not about deprivation, I don't think that works as a way to live your life, but today my better judgment actually won out over the nagging little voice that wants me to eat it, "just a bite, go on eat it!!!", and then one bite turns into one piece and one piece turns into two and so on and so on! Today equals a small victory in what is sure to be a journey with many pitfalls, setbacks, and hunks of chocolate cake, but for today...I WIN!! Plus I really want to see that scale move down when I step on it on Tuesday morning!!
My babies at work kicked my ass today, tomorrow will hopefully be a better day, my feet and legs are tired and I have a nagging pain in my old lady hip, I don't know if it's because of how busy I was or if it's the dansko shoes, I really should wear them more around the house and such during the week to break them in, even though I guess you don't break them in they break you in, or so the sales guy at The Walking Company said. Tomorrow it's back to tennis shoes and sheer comfort. Monday I go back to the chiropractor for another adjustment, I am still so happy and thankful she fixed the old lady hip, I am so thankful to be able to exercise again!!
I'm so tired, I have all these thoughts in my head and can't type them out so that they will make any sense so with that I am heading to bed here in a bit. Mallory is sitting in her crib with her legs hanging through the bars like she's in jail, it's pretty comical actually, I should probably snap a picture, but I'm sure she'll move before I get the shot, she's just so busy!
Food Log for Saturday 4/24/10

Breakfast:
Protein bar 290
Coffee with creamer 60

Lunch:
Lean cuisine pizza 300
Greek yogurt 110
Cauliflower vegs for one 40
Mandarin orange cup 60
Baby carrots 35

Supper:
Smart ones mac n cheese 300
Low fat hot dog 90 (chopped up in mac and cheese...yummo)

Snacks:
Cereal bar 130
Fish crackers 280 (yeah I had more than one serving)

Total of 1695 calories for the day
More than the targeted 1400 but it is just so hard for me on the days I work, my whole eating routine is out of whack and I am more hungry than I am during the week, it is just weird.
I'll have to look into better foods to take to work, with less calories in the very near future!

See ya!

"Cheat day" or not???

In an effort to maintain this "lifestyle", I think I am going to officially call Fridays a no calorie counting day. Not that I will fall off the wagon and go on a food frenzied eating binge, I just think this will be the day if I'm hungry for something I'll have it, without going overboard. I've been thinking alot about this and I think maybe this will be a way for me to stick with this, I guess I don't know for sure, but I'll try it and see how it goes, maybe this is just the food addict in me that is grasping to maintain it's stronghold, some desperate attempt to maintain control, or maybe I'm just way over thinking this. If the scale is up on Tuesday, or not down at all I will not do the Friday "cheat" day. Maybe this isn't the right thing to do, there aren't too many diets out there that do this, but if it works for me then it works for me and that's all that counts!
I tried doing a pilates dvd this afternoon and it just isn't for me. I know I have a weak core and that is why I have so much trouble with it, but it also makes the old lady hip hurt and I am not going back down that road! I tried my shake weight with the dvd that came with it and I'm not overly impressed, didn't really feel like it was much of a work out. Maybe after supper if it's not raining I'll take the girls for a walk around the neighborhood. Today I am just feeling tired and out of sorts, and I don't know why, it's been a busy hectic week and I have to work all weekend.

Food log for Thursday 4/22/10

Breakfast:
None (I know, I know) I meant to grab a protein bar on the way out the door to the photo place and I forgot and I sure as hell wasn't going to stop at a drive-thru

Lunch:
At Panera
Cup of low fat chicken noodle soup 80
1/2 Asian sesame chicken salad 200
French baguette side portion 180
(460) total

Supper:
Chicken and dumplings (made with boneless chicken breast and pop biscuits) 450

Snacks
Small fruit cup from Panera 60
Mini m&m's 200

Total calories 1170
Minus 510.3 burned on the treadmill
=659.7

Probably didn't eat enough calories today, I know that can stall weight loss, too. Damn skipping breakfast anyway!! HA!!

I'm beat, off to bed!!

Breathe in, breathe out

Who would have thought that yoga would help me with my running on the treadmill? I find myself concentrating on putting one foot in front of the other and focusing on my breathing, I can visualize my breath going in and coming out and that is all I think about, as soon as my mind starts to wander and those negative thoughts seep in, I go back to thinking about my breath, in and out and that's it. FOCUS! I did my usual 3.2 miles on the treadmill today, walked a mile first to make sure the old lady hip was warmed up and then I jogged 1.1 miles without stopping, a little faster than the run I did on Tuesday and it was very rewarding. I know it may not seem like much to some people but it is a really big deal to me!
Danny and I had lunch at Panera today, there is something about having a diet coke in those clear plastic cups with real lemon wedges, that just make it taste better, don't know what it is exactly, but I love getting soda there, well, I love the food too, but I have found some healthier options.
Mallory had her 18 month photo shoot today at JCPenney's and she did pretty well. She cried a little when the lady tried to change the way she was sitting and Danny and I both thought it was all over from there, but she got over it right away and did pretty well. Paige was along so that helped, and because Paige was feeling a little left out we did some photos of her and of the two of them together, they all turned out cute and I bought quite a few, but I had a half off coupon, so it wasn't quite as painful as normal!! I'm such a sucker for buying my kids pictures, more than I will ever need, but at least they can have them when they get older and out on their own, if they want them.
Tomorrow is grocery shopping day, boo, hiss!!! I hate hate hate grocery shopping, it is too damn expensive! I spent a good portion of the evening making out a month long menu for breakfasts, lunches, and dinners, I have a few meals to fill in, but for the most part it is done. It sucks with Danny working 2nd shift because I want to plan some nice lunches we can do together, but then I need to make a decent supper for the kids, seems I'm stuck in the kitchen either cooking or doing dishes, well there's also that never ending pile of laundry too, but that's a whole other story!!

Stats for today:
Treadmill
15 minutes
1.0 mile
172.6 calories
Walked 4.0 mph for the first half mile then did a .5 incline from .5 to .6 miles and then a 1.0 incline from .6 to .8 miles, down to a .5 incline from .8 to .9 miles, no incline from .9 to 1.0 miles

14.22 minutes
1.1 miles
185.8 calories
Jogged 4.6 mph without stopping (woot woot)

15.19 minutes
1.1 miles
187.4 calories
Alternated between walking at 4 mph and jogging at 5 mph

Totals
44.41 minutes
3.2 miles
510.3 calories
Baby steps, baby steps, baby steps!!!
Sorry for the boring stats, it's mostly for me to keep track for future reference!
Food log to follow...

The reason I am doing this...

Calories for Wednesday 4/21/10

Breakfast:
2 slices turkey bacon 70
Sandwich thin 100
Egg beaters 3/4 cup 90

Lunch:
6 inch Subway oven roasted chicken breast sub on wheat with lite mayo 420
Baked chips 130
Jello sugar free/fat free pudding cup 60

Supper:
Beef stew 350

Snacks
Golfish graham crackers 140
Mini m&ms 210
100 calorie pack sunchips

1670 calories total for the day
Definately over the 1400 goal
I really need to get some healthy snacks when I go grocery shopping this week.
I am not sure how many calories yoga burns, I'll have to ask my instructor when I see her next week. I'm thinking maybe a no calorie counting day once a week might be something for me to try (or maybe I'm just hungry right now...bleh!)
Off to bed!

Food Addiction

So, I've been thinking about addictions, and I will be the first to admit that I have a total food addiction, I have for as long as I can remember, I can remember going to the candy store on Main street every Saturday morning and pouring over all the goodies deciding what to spend my 15 or 20 cents on, believe it or not they still had penny candy at this store, then I would go home and watch cartoons and eat my loot. My mom is the greatest cook ever, and even though we weren't rich there were always good meals and home baked goodies, and celebrations on the holidays with food and family and good times, possibly this association to food and good times with family is part of this sick love affair, I have a love affair with food. It's not like the alcoholic or the drug addict who can stay away from the object of their addiction and stay out of situations where those things might be available, because everyone NEEDS food to live, basic premise, and still I struggle. I don't think my husband would mind me having this affair because he has the same addiction I do, I just wish he'd come to terms with the fact that he needs to do something about his weight to save his health, he's teetering on the brink and it kind of pisses me off that he expects to die young because all of the men in his family have, and it's dieing from things that are preventable or at least can be not as severe with diet and exercise. I guess that old adage that you can't get someone to do something until they decide to do it applies here, I just wish he'd realize what he will be leaving behind. It would be so much easier to do this together. We are supposed to eat to live not live to eat, and at most times in my life, I'm sad to say, I live to eat. It makes me happy and gives me something to look forward to. I am a snacker and I have a sweet tooth, a pretty shitty combination for a food addict. Why can't I be addicted to vegetables???? I've know what I need to do to lose weight, I've done it a hundred times in my life, my nickname could be yo-yo. I will focus on what I need to do to get healthy, not skinny, I will exercise and I will run and the weight will follow. I need to work on fixing my head and my addiction, that is what will lead to success forever.
Maybe I need to see Dr Phil...lmao!!
I made beef stew for supper tonight, I find it funny that I have one kid who could literally live off it 6 meals a week or so, one kid who hates the meat but will eat all the veggies, one kid who only likes the meat, and two that just pick at it (that is 5 kids right...)gah! Time to start trying some new recipes I think!
I went to yoga this morning and it was awesome, as usual! I was sweating up a storm and felt like I got a great workout. Tomorrow is the treadmill, I'm trying to shoot for just over one mile jogging in the middle even if it's 1.1, I'll take it!!
I'll post my food log later!

Food log Tuesday 4/20/10

Breakfast:
Turkey bacon bowl 240 (YUM!!)

Lunch:
2 tilapia filets 160
Frozen broccoli with cheese (1 cup) 45
Miracle whip (2 Tbsp) 80
Jello fat free/sugar free pudding cup 60

Supper:
Spaghetti
Ronzoni noodles 180
Lean ground beef (2 oz) 145
Sauce (1/2 cup) 60
Baguette (2 slices) 100

Snacks:
Nuts 260
Goldfish graham crackers 140

Total calories 1470
Minus 503.5 burned on the treadmill
=964.5 (not sure if this is good or bad...)
At least I came closer to my goal of 1400 calories a day. Now to incorporate more veggies and fruits, I really need to plan and make out a great grocery list for the shopping spree on Friday. I'm also thinking about how I can sneak more veggies into dishes without anyone being any the wiser! HMMMMM!!!! I'll work on that! Need to find some smoothie recipes too, Paige is on a total smoothie kick and those yoplait frozen bags of smoothie stuff are quite pricey!
I'm exhausted and heading to bed.

The mind will tell the body to quit before the body physically needs to quit

This is what my yoga instructor told us last night in an effort to get us to push just that little bit further. I am so guilty of this, so I need to shut down all the negative "chatter" going on inside of my head, I need to dig deep and overcome my own mind, as weird as that sounds. I am my own biggest obstacle.
In an effort to do this I got on the treadmill today, did my 1 mile warm up walk and then I jogged for one mile without stopping. This is huge for me because I haven't done it in months (and 30# ago), when I was going to the gym. It was a slow jog, 4.5mph, but my hip held up pretty darn well, considering. It was aching toward the end when I did the last 1.2 miles of jogging and walking, but I finished, and it felt damn good! I think switching to doing every other day on the treadmill instead of 5 days in a row is going to turn out to be a good move, at least for a while.
As a side note, when I was using the stairs to stretch out my hips after I got off the treadmill, Paige climbed half way up the stairs and basically straddled 3 steps and stretched out, "Is this right mom?"...Oh to be that flexible!!
Treadmill stats for today...
One mile walk:
15.23 minutes
1.00 miles
141.3 calories
Walked at 3.5 to 4.1 mph with a .5 to 1.0 incline

One mile jog:
13.22 minutes
1.001 miles
169.5 calories
Jogged at 4.5 mph no incline

1.2 mile jog/walk and cool down
17.50 minutes
1.2 miles
192.7 calories
Speeds and inclines varied

Totals for the day:
45.95 minutes
3.2 miles
503.5 calories burned

Not the greatest, but at least I'm getting there slowly but surely. I need to not overdo it, I don't want that hip to get bad again and set me back. No injuries!!!

So weigh in this morning was depressing 202.8#
I weighed 2# less at the doctors office this morning, with clothes on, which is weird, I don't know if my scale is off or his. Oh well, I'll go by mine.

I will post my food log later.

Food Log

Monday 4/19/10

Breakfast:
Protein bar 290

Lunch:
Salad 20
Chicken breast 110
Dressing 70
Salad topping 70

Supper:
Chicken nuggets 220
Fries 160
Ketchup 60
(Yeah, I know REAL healthy supper!! Jamie Oliver would hate me right now!)

Snacks:
Dry cereal 300
(OK OK , it was Cinnamon toast crunch, I got started and couldn't stop!)
Nuts 260
Orange 90

Total calories on the day
1650

Not great, that's for sure! I'm shooting for around 1400 calories per day. I will have to work on that, big time!! I'm digging in to my new cookbooks this week, so I can be better prepared next week.

I did 75 minutes at yoga and I'm really not sure how many calories that burns.

Tomorrow is weigh in. I want to weigh myself at home and see how it compares at the docs office. I have my annual in the morning...bleh!!!!

I'm out!!

Yoga

Yoga was incredible!!! As awkward as I felt, I did the best I could and I really felt good afterward. I'm planning on going again Wednesday morning. My plan is treadmill on Sundays, Tuesdays, and Thursdays, Yoga at the studio Mondays and Wednesdays and using one of the bazillion exercise dvds I have on Fridays, and rest on Saturdays. We will see how this all pans out. I think with the old lady hip it is probably a better idea not to do the treadmill 5 days in a row with 2 off every week. Every other day is probably a safer bet for me. I don't want any setbacks. We are only moving forward from here. One foot in front of the other, as my niece once told me.
Kids are bathed and need to be put to bed. I'll post my food log later.

5K at Bastille days in Milwaukee

Holy shit, there are only 80 days until the 5K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Accountability...oh yeah!!!

So, accountability is a huge deal for me so here we go.
I am going to post my daily food and exercise log here as well as all the pitfalls, the good and the bad, on my journey to a healthier me. I have always thought I wanted to be skinny and I guess as I get older I have decided that more than that, I want to be healthy. I want to be able to keep up with my little kids and because I'm an older mom to the youngest of my two kids I really want to be healthy to be there for them, not as an "older mom" but a mom who is healthy and active, a mom who runs in races...how cool would that be!!!!
My hip is feeling better, after seeing the chiropractor for the third time as of today. I am so thankful that she was able to fix me. I was really disappointed when I thought I wasn't going to be able to run on it. Now I am back on track, jogging at a slower pace than I was, but I will get back to where I was when I was going to the gym. I was doing so well before I blew it and totally fell off the wagon over the holidays, just haven't quite gotten my groove back yet, but I will! I will take off the 30# I gained back of the 60# I lost and I will get back to running more. When I was going to the gym and WW I actually was running, 20 minutes at a time without stopping, I have never in my life been able to that, not even as a kid, so I know I can do it again.
My official weigh in day is going to be Tuesdays, and yes as embarrassing as it is, I will post my progress here. My friend Ann and I are trying to keep one another accountable and on track, it really helps to have someone to buddy up with for this.
I am taking a yoga class tonight for the first time ever, we'll see how that goes. I'll post my food log and a yoga update later.